Well it’s New Year’s Day 2010. I’m down in Canberra staying at my sister’s place. I’ve come down here to get away from my place in Sydney, just in case something in the environment is making me sick. Other neighbours in the building where my unit is have been complaining of damp in the air, and a mould problem. Perhaps the mould spores are making me ill. Three weeks in Canberra while my sister and her family are away on holidays should be long enough to recover from something like that. Mind you I think it’s a long shot; I’ve been away on a lot of long (up to 3 months) road trips since getting ill, and although I feel happier while travelling, I always return home feeling much the same.

A better theory I’m going with is that my illness is essentially stress-related. As I say that, I hear my mother’s voice in my head saying “How could you possibly be suffering from stress! You don’t even have  a job! Don’t be so ridiculous”. Well growing up with a mother like that is probably enough to induce some pretty deep-seated life-long stress, but that’s a topic for another time.

My number 1 priority for 2010 is to get my energy back. While searching for stories of other people who have recovered from CFS, I came across the forums at chronicfatiguetreatments.com, which led me to the Gupta Amygdala Retraining Program. I resonated a lot with what Ashok said about his experience of CFS, and since I feel like I’ve exhausted what medical science has to offer, along with a bunch of increasingly bizarre alternative health treatments, I decided to give it a go.

I just finished watching the first DVD today. The explanation for CFS makes sense to me, and being from an Engineering background, I like things to make logical sense. I know it hasn’t been put to a double-blind trail yet, but I’m willing to give it a go anyway.

I could relate to a lot of what the other ex-sufferers said in their testimonials with similar symptoms like:

  • Recurrent flu-like illnesses in the years before the really chronic illness
  • Persistent cough
  • Flu-like symptoms
  • Sore throat
  • Overwhelming tiredness, especially after exercise or physical exertion
  • Feeling like my life has been hit-for-six
  • Unable to focus on things I used to be able to
  • Tension and anxiety, especially anxiety about getting better
  • Depression; not right now, but certainly during the past year

Fortunately I don’t have the brain fog or physical some other people report, so I’m grateful for that. All the people on the DVD obviously attribute their significant recovery to this programme, so I feel like I have some hope back. I’ve had a lot of people over the last two years tell me that they could help me, and I feel like none of them ended up really being able to cure me 100%. Perhaps they were stepping-stones along the way, but I hope this time I’m onto something. We’ll see.

Right now I feel average; a bit tired since I haven’t been sleeping well, and a tiny bit tense; but pretty much at the level I’ve been used to. My sister’s family go on holidays tomorrow, so I’ll be on my own for a couple of weeks. I usually live alone and like not having to share my space with idiot flatmates, but I’ve enjoyed having my sisters’ family around. It’ll be interesting to see how I feel when they’re not here.

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Graham Stoney

I'm a guy in his early 50's, recovering from Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Severe Obstructive Sleep Apnea.

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