Chronic Fatigue Survivor's Blog

A blog about my experience recovering from Chronic Fatigue

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Hey folks, Well it's been a long time between updates, but I thought I'd drop in to wish you all a Happy 2011. This year has been pretty rough at times, but I seem to be recovering gradually. There is hope on the horizon. On a bad day it may feel like wishful thinking, but [...]

I'm currently in Brisbane visiting my father's family, motivated by my aunty's 80th Birthday. Technically, it's six months now since I began the Gupta Amygdala Retraining programme for Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. So I think it's time for a review. I say "technically", because I only really stuck to the programme for the first four of those [...]

There's some more research out confirming the association between XMRV and CFS. It's sounding more plausible to me, although I've no idea how I would have picked up XMRV. I wonder if it's possible to get tested for it, out here in far-flung Australia. Even if I was positive, there's no recommended treatment yet... so [...]

Couldn't get to sleep last night, so I stayed up late finishing off Richard Branson's autobiography Losing My Virginity. I love the guy's mindset; whatever he wants, he just goes after, seemingly without fear. Very inspiring. Woke up this morning feeling quite tense and agitated. My cold/flu is gone, so I'm back to just feeling [...]

Went to a humorous public speaking workshop today, which was good fun. Learned heaps, and decided to do a bootcamp on the topic on Monday/Tuesday. Didn't sleep brilliantly last night, but hey, what's new? Heading out tonight to do a little nightclubbing; I can afford to write tomorrow off. Don't think I'll stay overly late [...]

I cried myself to sleep last night; the mood swings were really getting to me, and I just felt really depressed about how stuck I feel being ill much of the time. Lee's advice yesterday to put my dreams on hold and avoid pushing on with the help of medication, while valid and helpful, sounded [...]

Last week I decided to visit a holistic healer who I met when I attended a workshop he ran on Men, Power and Sex. I was attracted to him because he's a guy, but unlike some of the male healer/counsellor/therapists I've met, he seemed particularly in touch with his masculinity. Growing up in a family [...]

I've just watched a fascinating discussion about anxiety on Insight, on SBS One. I have found anxiety to be one of the most disturbing aspects of chronic fatigue. And when I look back on the disturbing events of my life prior to becoming physically ill, anxiety is generally at the core of most of them. [...]

I've been taking things a little easier lately, and generally feeling better for it. I cut my acting practise back to two nights a week (instead of four), so I can accommodate the pick-up course I'm doing on two other nights a week. I get overwhelmed when I think how far I have to go [...]

Fear

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I went out to lunch today with a friend I used to work with, about 10 years ago. I hadn't seen him since falling ill, and it was good to catch up again... even though my story wasn't as enlightened as I would have liked. After getting home, I was tidying up when I heard [...]