A friend of mine just asked on Facebook how I’m doing, so I thought it was time for an update
I’ve been pretty up-and-down lately with lots of headaches and exhaustion; but I’m taking it easy today and not feeling too bad. I’ve been going to a therapy group to deal with anxiety, and that seems to be helping. I did some negative belief work with a woman I met on the internet; but I’m not sure it was effective enough to justify the cost. I haven’t been doing my Art Of Living practice so much lately, but I think the 3 months I spent doing it hard-core helped get my lung muscles back into shape. Lately I’ve also been doing some light weight work with dumbbells & sit-ups on the days when I don’t feel too bad. I’ve also been sticking to the diet principles in the Adrenal Fatigue book.
I work for myself as a writer but I don’t earn much money yet and haven’t been very motivated lately; but maybe I just need to take it easy anyway. My last project didn’t really take off, and I’m keen to move on but I don’t like writing when I don’t feel inspired. I’ve watched 5 Woody Allen movies in the last week, and listened to the first 6 Harry Potter books on CD since last month; I chalk that up to “research”.
Embracing the idea of just experiencing whatever I feel, rather than struggling against it, has given me a little more peace of mind. Yet other times I just feel really angry. In a repressed kind of way.
Oddly enough I’ve just got into an Improv show which I’m really looking forward too; somehow when I’m on stage I don’t feel the anxiety so much. I just don’t think I have time to feel it. How weird is that?