I feel kinda knackered today. Just woke up really tired. Been doing quite a few Stop-Stop-Stop’s; mainly over symptoms and “Is this treatment working?”
I did lunch today with a girl I met on an online dating site. It was our first meeting. She turned out to be really lovely, and it was quite fun meeting her… but I do find dating stressful, and I wonder whether it’s helping me. Mind you I’m single, and that’s stressful in its own way too. During lunch at one point I felt like I wanted to be sick. I didn’t mention that I’m recovering from CFS to her. I’d like to get to know her better.
I’m only just discovering how to get around the fears that have prevented me from dating the people I’d really like to be spending time with. I suspect these fears have a lot to do with the stress that I experience. The amygdala is the emotional centre of the brain, and it’s hugely involved in the whole dating/relationship thing. I wonder what the best thing to do is: date? Not date? sex? celibacy? There are pros and cons to all.